One Year Ago

One year ago today, I learned sweet Seth was on his way...again...

I think about that phone call from the nurse a lot, maybe too much, to be honest - but having your child "come back to life" in a sense is truly something that surpasses my wildest imaginations.

From finding out Seth was coming to the nurse's mistake saying he wasn't to the call 5 days later saying my HCG numbers looked great to pain in my side symptomatic of an ectopic pregnancy to having an ultrasound reveal no tubal pregnancy, but perhaps now a molar pregnancy...

To receiving another call that things were fine.....To his rather dramatic birth....

My darling Seth has taught me a lot about trusting God...

While I was pregnant with him, I posted Proverbs 3:5-6 above my computer.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."

I must have read this a million times - constantly giving my fears to Him and NOT relying on anything I thought I understood. I learned never to be so arrogant to think I know what God's plans are, but to be thankful that even when things don't seem o.k. - Trusting God completely allows me the freedom to know it's o.k.

We chose Seth's name because it means "Appointed." I thought it was appropriate for a little boy meant to be here as part of our family. I remember reminding God as I prayed while being wheeled in to the OR that my little boy was appointed and begged God to let my tiny baby to be born crying....and he was :) ...I took that powerful baby cry as a gift of certainty that Seth was completely in God's hands. I relied on this gift throughout his stay at the hospital...and even today.

So after this roller coaster of a year, I am very grateful that we are on the other side of it....The 5 of us together knowing we are more than o.k....moreso, we are having the time of our life!